playing my emphases like harp strings
your voice smokes thru the oaken bramble
pour a carbonated apology, a sun-stained
mile marked envelope, two ill-fitted birds,
hands small holes right before a rush of river
what it feels like being swallowed from the outside
crushing rings into truth serum, pretend
to be out of tune with that deception
I have been unable to parse my own persona
a pink cotton voice I remember thru the phone
I remember because it formed me into a granary
one crop after another of patriarchal idioms
whisper my secrets so softly into a glint of red hair
a saucer-eyed lace pattern cut into pine paper
I practice radical self lo
I slept so long... centuries, eons; myriads of stars looked down on me, and another myriads looked up. Cradled in the bedding made of suns... and fire. My dreams were filled with debris of scorched buildings, burning forests, world set in blue and white flames. My blood boiled in my veins, yet my sleep was eternal, just like gods who bound me. There were no shackles, no bars to hold me. I was dead for the world of humans, as long as I slept. And faith was dwindling, pouring cold water on my inner inferno, day by day, year by year... But there are always fools. Fools who think they can gain more power, more strength... who want to light their own flame... and perish within it. I waited for a fool, who would set me free, quench the thirst of my dreams, unleash blazing storm above the sky, to burn down the darkness. I am a god, I could wait long. The faith placed in glory, in that one man, could set up even the poorest kindling. He wanted to use me as a pawn to domination. Yet he
I buried the storm deep under fallen leaves silenced the rageful wind dirt-engraved the thunder where a storm was only I remained the vine dryad with grass-stitched mouth calm as a pool among the noiseless woods
I write to you
Will you make my wish come true?
All I want this Yuletide
Is to have him by my side
I leave a candle burning bright
Can you find a way to make this right?
All I want this Christmas time
Is to feel his hand in mine
It's so cold
And I'm alone
Won't you help me, please?
I promise I'll be good
If you only would
Bring him back to me
Dear Santa, please
Bring him back to me
if god is truly infinite and all-encompassing, one definition can't possibly cover every aspect of them. i use they/them pronouns when i talk about god because that’s how it is, that’s how it goes. the world is made of strawberry sunsets and my brown knuckles. i like to think about the birdsong in my veins, holding on, holding on.
think of diamonds and facets, think of multileveled truths. think of circles and multiple choice questions with more than one answer. will you ever comprehend god? i don’t think so. think of skyscrapers with multiple floors, and all the people on each floor, the same cognition, the same shaking ha
insoluble dream of living well by scheherazades, literature
Literature
insoluble dream of living well
Walking into honest holes laced up morning harbinger zip closed your body a work uniform exhume a thing which. Dabbled in dark beauty what future living this is it wringing the water out the cloth wringing the love out the body I am trying not to wander yesterdays garden dodging calls from my insurance provider as the city rages on & on I am always losing me in pieces the small change of my soul abandoned to various couches across europe Yes in fact I am missing something But still this is where I'm leaving you the feeling of guilt is a natural result of desire. I want to run over the hills and into the moon let the day the body, the schism I spun the poem round the. Page made soup. dreamsof transjoy its september I do dream of going I
once more before the end times let us sit in a warm green field slip the creek— run our restless down and do a perfect job of everything. i will cradle your face with my hands under your sky and wander careless up to your summit— spilling out from our bindings onto the same page you and i know each others edges scheherazade— you were looking right at me once more before the end times let us get drunk early in soft stages whisper how it will be when the cows come home, shamelessly alive i love you in the dawn which is mine and in the night, which belongs to you as with most things it is just like you said simply, how you are is too good and rare to lose.
the lint roller can’t collect even half of what I leave behind,
what the monstrous divides the train passes -
what my head dredges up the lake lights guide
to resolve, with webbing, the vacancy
tackling the notion of longing.
unperished, and no worse for wear
my head pixelates,
penitent to eyelashes
and begins to write its own ending.
the newness of a night spent sleepless by 0hgravity, literature
Literature
the newness of a night spent sleepless
the countryside is outside her bedroom
the lean curved slice is her nocturnal god
the candlesticks kneel slow
she reached this place in a panic
and is catching her breath
in the yawn of the wind
in the rustle of brush
full of life
beginning again